I feel so lost…
I feel like I’ve been in a dream for the last 7 weeks and now I’ve woken up. And the realisation and grogginess of a vivid dream is all there.
This is all a dream, it’s not real, in a minute I will wake up and everything will be ok…..
But I know it’s not.
I know I’m awake, I know the pain will kick in properly soon…. I know I’m no longer going to be a mum to the child I was carrying. I’m not pregnant anymore, however much I wish I was….. It doesn’t feel real yet…
When will it feel real? My heart is in two, I’m trying to keep it together…. I need to keep it together.