tired and emotional

Well the title pretty much sums it up.

 I’m shattered at the moment 70 hour weeks are hard. I will I had more than one day off… But being the boss does that to you. Things are picking up with work though so hopefully I can start having more time off soon. 

It makes me emotional and makes me feel very weak…. Especially when I comes to food. I can be bothered to cook or prep anything. I’m currently sat in the changing rooms in the pool trying to get the energy to go for a swim. I can’t do some of my normal classes after pulling muscles when I had my chest infection. Hopefully next week…. 

But yeah feeling very emotional. I’m due on in a few days. I know again that I’m not pregnant and it sucks. I can’t wait to see the fertility specialists and see what they suggest as both mine and Chris results came back good….. So why can’t I conceive? What’s going wrong?

Fed up

About ready to give up… Fed up of my weight gain due to pcos even though I’m restricting my diet… Fed up to taking so many tablets… Fed up of not being able to catch…. Fed up of waiting for anything to happen :/ 

meh

Feeling a bit meh today. 

I shouldn’t be. We’ve employed an apprentice who has started this week and has already lowered my stress levels.

But I’m worried about money…. Worried about my weight… Im worried bout why my test results came back ok but I still can’t concieve…. Worried about Chris test results…. Worried we aren’t brining in enough new business at work…. 

Bah I can’t manage all this

What’s been happening…

I’ve not posted in ages, things have been so manic here recently. Work has been really busy which is great.

I’ve had bloods taken to start the fertility referal, and get my results today. I’m a little nervous!!

Emotionally I’ve been doing really well I think, I’ve had a couple of crashes but on the whole I’m doing good! 

I’ve gained some weight again which I’m pissed off at buto well…. My diet has been a little off and I cut back the drugs as I was running low and forgot to hand in my prescription. 

Update, my results all came back good. Apart from a increased amoith of bacteria in my lady bits… Which is fixed with a week if antibiotic. Nothing major so all good.

Really makes me question why we haven’t concieved though. Maybe I ovulated this month….. I dunno but I know I got the all clear.